This week has been a very busy one for me. I had to do a lot of papers and to finish a couple of online requirements. This should be the final day of the school week for me (since we don’t have classes on Fidays at DLSU) but since we’re still going to have our defense this Saturday, I can’t actually say that this hectic week’s already done. Add to that, I still have 3 final papers to pass and 1 oral presentation this coming week so I’m guessing I won’t be able to rest this weekend. My hell week was extended ’till next week, much to my dismay.

But apart from my body and brain feeling so tired and drained, sadness is slowly creeping in me. Thanks (or no thanks) to the mock defense we’ve conducted a while ago, I’ve finally snapped back to reality after being out of it the past days. The fact that the coming two weeks will be my last official two weeks as a student finally dawned me. The constant line of “Cla, gagraduate ka na! Magtatrabaho ka na niyan!” that my friends have been telling me since last term is finally sinking in. The invitations from companies for employment tests and job interviews are clear indications that this really is it.

I’m really leaving my carefree student life in a matter of weeks and I’ll soon be joining the corporate world.

I’ve been waiting for this for a long time but now that the time for all of this to end is just around the corner, I can’t help but feel a little bit emotional. I never knew that saying goodbye to student life could be this saddening. Now I know why adults tell us to cherish every minute of our student life and why many people opt to take graduate studies. I guess I’ll also be pursuing an MA in a matter of years partly because of this very same reason.

I still have two weeks before this term ends and a few weeks before graduation. I’ll spend these weeks in making the most out of my title as “student”, relishing being a “La Sallian”, living a blithe life where I mostly do things without a care for the world, enjoy going out with my friends, and making my student life more fulfilling.

A few weeks is all I have.

Only a few more weeks to do all of these.

After those few weeks, my life’s going to change.

It’s funny how the way I wrote it made college graduation seem like an incurable illness that causes death. Well as funny as it may sound, for me it is. It’s like death and reincarnation all at the same time. A sad but happy feeling. I’m weird, I know. But that’s how I view it. My old, childish and happy-go-lucky self will “die” and the new me who is more independent, serious and responsible (at least that’s what I want to be like) will be “born.” From that day onwards, I’ll be the one responsible for myself and my life. The moment I step out of the graduation venue come graduation day, I will be taking charge of my life, start making life-changing decisions and probably affecting other people’s lives, too. That is also when I will truly be mingling with “real” (not in the literal sense of the word) people who could make my life better or worse.

In simple terms, I will finally be part of the “world” and will soon be experiencing the bittersweet reality of life. If I’ll be able to cope, that I have to discover slowly by myself. But I believe that all the years I spent as a student has equipped me with everything I need and prepared me in this new chapter of my life. Therefore, I am confident that I will be able to cope with any change, with any situation.

Anyway, I’ll end this emo moment of mine before it gets out of hand. Besides, I’m saving my “graduation entry” on the night of my graduation. I did not intend to write this but I just felt like it, thanks to the rare visit of my slushy self. So, shall we just consider this as a primer? ;D

[P.S Woah, I actually posted a whole personal, self-related entry? IT'S THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS THAT I HAVE DONE THIS. Yay for me! I actually missed this. It's fun to post personal and non-kpop related entries once in a while. It serves a breather, really. ]