video addiction March 9, 2008
Posted by lovetohateme in TVXQ random posts, k-pop love.Tags: addiction, Changmin, DBSK, Explorations of the Human Body, K-pop, Kim Jaejoong, Korean shows, Super Junior, video download, Youtube
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Aside from my new K-pop addiction (or should I say DBSK and Super Junior addiction? 
), downloading videos from Youtube is another of my new found hobbies. Again, a very big thanks to my friend Patti for this new addiction of mine because just like how she introduced me to Super Junior and DBSK, she was the one who taught me how to download videos, which I bet is due to her annoyance of me asking her to download videos for me.
Ever since I learned how to download videos, I got so fond of doing it that I had downloaded more than 70 videos as of late. And mind you, I still have A LOT of videos waiting in line to be downloaded. Hahaha. Now I can say that I can sympathize with DBSK’s Changmin’s interest in downloading videos – well, almost. Of course I’m not downloading the types of videos he (or maybe any guy for that matter) is downloading, but I can say that it can really be addicting once you get to try it. Actually, as of the moment while I’m typing this entry, I’m in the process of downloading a video. Its currently 45% complete. Honestly, I hate downloading here at home because the connection is too slow unlike when I’m using WiFi connection. Using WiFi, I can download almost 20 videos a day if we’re lucky enough to have a connection for one whole day (hahaha. talking about “stealing” WiFi signals. lol).
So, you may ask what kind of videos do I download? All of the videos I’ve downloaded so far are MVs of songs of DBSK and Super Junior or the Korean programs that they’ve guested in. Most of the videos I’ve downloaded are variety shows, concerts, interviews, talk shows, game shows, and some gag shows – all with DBSK or Super Junior in them. The very first videos I watched, which are also the reasons why I got addicted to videos, are the first 3 episodes of Exlorations of the Human Body hosted by Shin Dong Yup and Super Junior. Its a show that aims to test the different parts of the body. Its such a fun show to watch and educational, too. But sadly, it ended after the 13th episode because Super Junior has to visit different Asian countries for their concert called ”Super Show”. Since then, I started searching Youtube for videos of DBSK and Super Junior. But for the past weeks, since I’m getting more addicted to DBSK day by day – a very big thanks to Kim “Hero” Jaejoong, I found myself downloading different videos of programs where they’ve guested in even if it was shown a couple of years back. THAT is how addicted I am to DBSK now. 
But Patti and I are not the only ones addicted to Korean videos in our “meangirls group”. Just like how Patti has infected me with her Korean craze, the two of us was also able to infect our friend Kathy with this illness. Well she’s not YET a fan of DBSK or Super Junior nor does she download videos just like us, but she sure loves watching the Korean shows that Patti and I have downloaded. Since I have so many videos in my notebook, I decided to copy them in a CD so that I can erase them afterwards. Every time I have new videos which I transfered in a CD, Kathy would always borrow it from me and watch them at home. She even tells us that her two sisters watches the videos with her and they’re enjoying them. Hahaha. Talk about spreading the so called “love-for-korean-shows illness”.
Anyway, that’s my video addiction story for you. I still have to download a lot of videos of DBSK, which I found in Youtube a while ago. I hope I could finish ALL of them by this week. I can’t wait to watch them because they seem to be funny. OMG. I’m really into this! lol.
not enough spice March 9, 2008
Posted by lovetohateme in Uncategorized.Tags: boring life, college life, exciting activities, graduation, pressure, school
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I feel so bored lately. My life seemed to revolve on the same things everyday. Its almost so similar everyday that I don’t even need to make a to-do list just to know what are the things I need to accomplish for the day. I think that as time goes by, my life is beginning to get “stagnant” and unexciting. If I were to compare it with food, it has no variety whatsoever. The things I’m doing for the past months are not enough to “spice” up my life (yeah, spice girls song! hahaha!).
Not that my life before was super exciting and all. It’s just that I think my life nowadays lack some meaning and fun into it. I can’t seem to enjoy to the fullest whatever I’m doing nowadays because I’ve done them so many times already. The feeling is just the same to the point that I’m getting tired of it. Ok, I know I’m sounding a bit weird but I hope you get my point. In simple terms, most of what I do know just doesn’t feel right anymore. I’m getting tired of it and I am not happy at all.
I want to do something different, something that would give me a different kind of enjoyment. Something that I would genuinely enjoy. I want to try out some challenging things that I’ve never done before like playing some sports or learning other languages, or getting myself involved in some meaningful and fun activities. I want to have fun. I want to be productive. I simply want to learn new things.
But the frustrating part of this whole thing is I can’t do it even if I want to. Well, at least not right now. Simply because I’m too busy worrying too much about school (since I’m graduating in a few months time) and getting so stressed in thinking about what would happen to me after graduation. Ever since I entered college, I’ve always worried about my “future” after I step out of college and into the real world. My fear of not getting to where I want to be really bothers me so much to the point that I’m pressuring myself too much. Starting from that time, I’m aware of this kind of pressure but I never noticed that its slowly creeping into me as every school year comes to an end. It was only now that I realized how that “pressure monster” had grown big inside of me to the point of suffocating me. And now, I can’t seem to find a way to escape from it anymore. Its like this monster is holding my neck so tight that no matter how hard I try to release myself from its grip, it just wouldn’t allow me. And the more I try to escape from it, the tighter its grip becomes making me feel more numb and helpless. Its the one thing which hinders me from enjoying my life now, at least that’s what I think. Its one of the major reasons why I feel so tired and “lifeless” the past months. And the sad thing is I can’t think of a way to fight this monster inside of me, which leaves me with no choice but to just let it be and wait till it decides to let go by itself.
There’s no use complaining now. I guess I just have to deal with it the way a girl of my age would. I also think that its up to me if I would let this monster control the last of my college life or if I would find a way to somehow “soften” things up. I just hope my boring and “bland” life would have some exciting moments even for just once in a while. Just a bit more and this will be over… I hope…
